It's 11:11 , 11/11/11 Now

It's 11:11.
Today 11/11/11.
Wanted to tell you that

• you're always the 1 I quarrel with somebody else,
• you're always the 1 I would find to talk to,
• you're always the 1 I struggle to be with,
• you're always the 1 I do something for,
• you're always the 1 I determined for,
• you're always the 1 I enlighten me,
• you're always the 1 I thought of,
• you're always the 1 I missed,
• you're always the 1 I cared,
• you're always the 1 I loved.

And finally , You're always my only 1  .

I can't get you off my mind , I love you . 

What do I feel right now.

SPM is just next week , so is your birthday.

While you have been not-replying my messages ,

made me feeling down like the temperature these few weeks.

Raining everyday , looking at the waters falling from the sky through the windows in my room.

Thinking how you have been.

Without your words each day , revisions , homeworks , studies . I could not do it all.

For you have been wondering in my head , going from my brain to my heart and back to brain. Repeating non-stop .

Missing you ❤

Thinking of you ❤

Worrying about you ❤

Your birthday is the MOST important day of my year .

But, it falls together with the MOST important examination of this year.

But yet , you are still the MOST important person of my life.

After happened so many things , you still are and will be the love of my life.

I'm sorry for all these .

PS: I love you.

My first time going and back by plane without parents :)

My last happy day during the holiday. Lol   :(

Birthday ?

It's my birthday again , and it's my 17th birthday. Never thought that it would be this fast. Time passes quickly no matter it's happy or sad. I didn't ask for any activities or any outing for the day, and gifts too. Because I think that I don't deserve it :)   Unless you all out there insist. I don't think of anything for this year because last year was disappointing and I don't want to have high hope on it , so just let it be, whatever that happens. And for my birthday wish, it'll be the same as last year. Nothing will change. Happy Birthday for myself.

Do you know this?

That day the wind blew, I tried to hold your hand.
And still, the rain kept falling...
...so hard until I couldn’t see you.
How much longer until I can be again at your side?
Waiting for a day when it clears up, maybe I’ll be a little better then.
Long long ago, there was someone who loved you for so long.
But yet, the wind kept constantly...
...blowing, widening the gap so much further.
So difficult to have another day to love again.
But it seems that, at the end of the story you still said, “Goodbye”.

All I want for now

If I don't sms you , will you sms me ?
If I don't find you , will you find me ?
If I don't talk to you , will you talk to me ?
All I want from you for the time being is sms me , find me and talk to me, will you do it as a friend ?

I'm sincerely sorry.

I'm really sorry. I would do anything to make you feel better, anything. I didn't know it mean so much to you. This is my wrong, I should be penalise. Really sorry.  Actually  all I want to do is  just to make you understand the fact, but instead, it made me understand I shouldn't  be that 8 ..  I've learnt my lesson, and wouldn't care more anything about you.  I only get things worse. I sucks. Since today I understand that you started ying chao me, I think you really do feel I'm annoying and busybody. I guess everything's over.

I hope you can

Wake up in the morning, tfe first thing I think in my head is you. Played the piano the whole morning, feeling so down. Always run back to the room to check my phone or facebook if there is anything from you. In the afternoon, water falling from the damp  sky, still  am I  sitting there... But this time, I saw that you hav updated your blog, but I ain't happy because you said you're only writting here when you're sad. I didn't care that much about anything because all I want at that time is to know what you have wrote there. Cycled to my friend's house, didn't care about the rain, just to borrow the computer. Finally, I read all about it, and realized you still can't let go of him. You need to learn how to walk through the past, learn to use bandage to heal the wounds. I believe you can do it. I will wait for you to walk through the past eventhough I'm sad  cause of you can't letting go..

I don't know how.

Everytime I will think about you , keep appearing in my head.  Always wanted to know how are you. Each time when I wanted to find you , I will prevent myself from doing so , but in the end .... I couldn't  escape from finding you. I couldn't resist . So , all I might do now is , prevent myself to keep finding you, a few is enough for me I think. Now in the early morning of sunday, 3am, couldn't get to sleep because I keep thinking of you. Even sometimes my tears will drop out when I think back our memories. I miss the way you msg me last time. We would talk about everything, but now, sometimes you maybe feel  I'm such annoying... but actually do you think that I'm caring about you? Worry about you?

I'll be right here waiting.

I don't care how long do I need to wait, I will be waiting for you until the very end. I love you, I need you, though my world will fall and I'll never let you go.  Whenever there is some feel to me, don't hesitate, just tell me... I'll be always here for you.. even if it takes eternity. Wherever you go, whatever you do, I'll be right here waiting for you. Now then I realized that I had been misunderstood for months, I though you were writing about him the whole time, but you weren't... now then I know , there was mine.  I think that I can no longer sms you because the more msg I send, the more you'll be deleting. I don't wanna you to delete my msgs, I don't care if you'all think I'm selfish. When I heard you deleted some, my heart sank down. Forever will I be an apple of yours, pear. Sincerely, Beloved Apple.

I Love You

When i write the post on 1st jan.. i realize im just lying myself.. i really needed you in my life , i really love u very much..  my love to you is pure real.. if not , why i will keep finding u eventhough i'm rejected nt only once, but twice before..you meant to me more than u can think.. without you i really cant feel happiness around me.. you didn't delete my msgs.. that means there is some feel to me.. please.. i really do need a chance to show how much i love you.. you are my life..

I understand =)

배 , I understand.

I'm just treating you as a friend,

As it passed already so long,

I don't know what to say,

I'm happy you take my words to your heart,

As it is only some pieces of advices for you.

You better don't tell me,

Because I'm scared too,

As I have the same mind as you,

Repeating the mistake I done to the past.

I don't scare being teared,

But I do scare tearing you instead,

Me too , do enjoy the time , and the chat,

You're welcome for anything I did.

Thank you, for the year